You take my breath away.

Watching every motion
In my foolish lover's game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watching I keep waiting
Still anticipating love
Never hesitating
To become the fated ones
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am unafraid

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watching every motion
In this foolish lovers game
Haunted by the notion
Somewhere there's a love in flames
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love
Take my breath away.

That's our song...:)

Well, I haven't updated in forever and a half, so here's homecoming.
-At Christine's house...
-Matt "I'm two 4 letter words, lazy and late." Amanda: "more like lazy and ugly"..OOO FACED! haha
-The girls: "christine, you can't be in the pictures because your date isn't here." HAH WONDERFUL
-Our sweet ass expedition with chrome 20's.
-At dinner...
-Christine bumping into the table and spilling water all over my dress. Nice.
-Chuckie-DON'T BE GAY!
-Jared and Matt- "the lobster looks like Amanda, short, shrimpy, and hollow!"
-Christine opening the bottle of "champagne" (hah) and it exploded all over the girls on our end of the table. (Christine, hon, don't open it near someone's face next time."
-Jared: "is anyone here Jewish?"
-The dance...
-the dance was fun, yet kind of stressful. Christine and Jared got in a fight because Jared and I kinda kissed. We didn't make out, to all of you who think we did. We didn't make out. We just kissed on the lips. Like touching elbows. So, Christine got mad and started making out with Adam, sparks flew, Jared got pissed at Christine. blah blah blah. Everything is better now.
-I danced with Jared most of the time when Christine was off somewhere else because Max was with his friends somewhere, but we danced a lot, too.
-Jared was so amazing.

That night...
-Jared and I talked while he was at Christine's house and he played "everything you want" on her guitar.
-He asked to come over the next day, but I wasn't allowed.

The next day...
-Christine called me early in the morning. She and I kinda got in a fight.
-when she told me she didn't like Jared, I thought she was serious, but she just didn't want to make matters worse.
-Jared called me around 12:45 and asked me to go to his homecoming with him. He said he wanted to ask me out, but Christine would probably be upset if he did, so he wants to wait a while.

Saturday is sweetest's day, so I'm gonna go over his house and he's making a candle-lit dinner :) SO ROMANTIC!!! I'm embarrassed!

Jared and I have a song. "Take my breath away" by Jessica Simpson.(his idea) =D

That's really about it.

Ailis looked really pretty on homecoming night.

I'll put some pictures up on here when I get the time.

I'll update on homecoming later.

To everyone who thinks I'm a slut because of what happened last night...fuck you.

Well, since I haven't updated in a while I guess I'll write a few things now.

Being the successful business woman that I am, I am proud to say that I have been chosen to be on the model UN committee thing. That's all.

I'm leaving for Notre Dame tomorrow with Mallory and Steve and I'm sooo excited. We're coming home Sunday night.

I'm going to homecoming with Max Hanni :) We're going to have a blast. My dress is GORGEOUS. It's wine colored and it's strapless and plain. It's form fitting, but it's beautiful. I'm just going to wear the same shoes and jewelry that I wore to prom. It's not like any underclassmen saw it anyway. Plus, the 5 inch heels make up for my lack of height. =D

Tomorrow is my birthday. Sweet 16, the Canfield Queen! As my grandma said. Heh.

Well that's all. Comment for me :)

You know, a lot of people say that the sock hops suck, or that they're so boring. I guess that all depends on the person. I had the time of my life at one last night, and I'll tell you what, I made it fun for myself. I don't need other people to make me happy or to make my life better. Anyway, last night at the sock hop, I was with Christine and she's my best friend. :) Then I saw John which made me happy, but usually, girls, you know that when you see someone you like who doesn't like you, you probably get kinda down because you know you don't stand a chance. It's not like that! Just because he's there, make the best of it. I did. I went and I talked to him and hung out with him a lot of the night. I danced with him. He's amazing.

We went to the football game, woohoo fun times.

As Lauren has done previously, I've decided to follow her in analyzing my dreams.

Last night: Dream #1: I was sleeping.(in my dream) Then I was awoken by Lauren and Kyle...which is odd because for some reason, I still like Kyle...(in real life and the dream). So they came into my room, and it was really clean. I woke up and I was standing up, and Lauren sat down on my bed. Kyle was standing. I asked the normal questions like "what are you guys doing here?!" and stuff. So then, Kyle just...kissed me. It was a really good kiss, too, not a little peck like Gina's analogy of touching elbows, and not serious making out. It was a "sensual kiss." So then, Lauren just just staring at us like Oh my God, and then she pulled me aside into Ailis's room and told me that she needed me to get Kyle to go to homecoming with her so that I could go with Ryan. I didn't want to. Then Kyle was telling me about how he had just gotten dumped and how he felt really bad about it, and he was explaining to me how he loved to cuddle and how he really loved to be held. So, he layed down on my bed, and inevitably, I layed down next to him. We cuddled and he told me he really liked it and he kissed my hand. He told me that he didn't want to leave...So then, Lauren was leaving and Kyle kissed me again and my mom was watching, she didn't really care though...which was also odd. Then I asked Kyle if he wanted to stay since Lauren was leaving. He said yes. Then JT called and he was like do you want to go to a movie with me? So Ailis and I went, Kyle didn't, hah...weird. Then we came home and Kyle and I were hugging and just playing around in the front yard. Then Kyle fell and hit his head, and I felt bad. And then all of a sudden we were in Jordan's house, in Manhattan!? Jordan and Josh were sleeping together (oh how ironic...[sarcasm]) and Jordan's mom came to wake them up because she let's them do that...eew...and then Kyle and I left.
-Wow, I remember that quite vividly...

Dream #2: Devlin and I were talking on the patio at my house and he asked me if I wanted to go somewhere. He had gotten his license, so I asked my mom and she said okay. So, we went to this boardwalk type thing and we were walking around, but it looked like a construction site. Devlin asked me if I wanted a cigarette and I said yea, and we were walking around smoking, but the cigarette burned really fast. It didn't last long at all and I said something about it and he said he didn't know why they were like that. Then we met up with his grandparent's who were really nice to us. His grandma was so cute :)
-That's it, Andrew came in to wake me up.

My analysis:
Dream:1-My room was clean in my dream because the messiness of it has been bothering me for like 2 days. It was Lauren and Kyle in my room because I like Kyle and I am bothered by the fact that he and Lauren like eachother...:\ I'm sorry I didn't tell you Lauren...but it's really all I've been thinking about, so that's why they were there. I can't really explain the kisses or the whole lovey thing, but I do know that I wanted to hug John really bad last night, so that might have something to do with it. Going to the movies with JT was brought about because JT stated a few nights ago that we should go to the movies...I don't really know about the rest.

Dream:2-Devlin and I had spent a lot of time together last night, and maybe I was thinking about him, because even though we are just friends, I wouldn't mind going to homecoming with him. After all, we both just got dumped anyway. I think the smoking comes into play because he asked me if I had a cigarette last night, and obviously I didn't...So, that was about it. I guess his grandparents are nice. lol

I decided not to go to homecoming. I don't have the time to worry about finding a date. It's no big deal to me.
That's it for now.

-Amanda

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I'll bet you didn't think I'd ever update again. It looks like livejournal changed its format.

Well, I still don't have a date to homecoming and all my friends do. I'm kinda pissed about it. I really wanted to go. This sucks really bad. :\ Ailis is going dress shopping tomorrow after school. I'm not.

Well, not too much has happened since my last update. I got my hair done last week. It's too short but I think it will grow faster. I hope so.

Ugh, I'm still really depressed about homecoming. I want to go so bad...If you're nice and you're someone you know I wanna go with...ask me...:\ No one has asked me...I haven't really technically asked anyone either, but girls aren't supposed to do that...People keep pushing me to find a date, but I obviously can't find someone who wants to go with me, STOP PUSHING ME!

There's not much more for me to say, so I guess I'll finish up here. I think I'm just going to make my stupid journal friends only. Then you can all write nice stuff to me to TRY and make me feel better, and then I can add you to my list.

Reply or w/e...

Amanda.

Tonight, I was pretty upset about someone, but then Matt made it all better. He's really awesome, I'm glad I started talking to him. He's a good friend. Pat and Gina and Matt and I had fun at the band show, I think. At least I did.

I feel really dizzy.

You know, I was thinking about homecoming, and even though I really want to go, I guess everyone's right. It's not important at all. I'm tired of like 100 people telling me "don't go with someone you don't know." LET ME FIGURE IT OUT FOR MYSELF! But thanks. So, since I don't have a date, and most likely won't, who wants to play with me October 9? :)

Matt looked really sad on the bus ride home today. I felt bad and wanted to hold him. :\
-his hate list inspired me.
I hate:
-the way people look at me.
-How I don't have a boyfriend.
-How I like someone I know I can't have.
-my lips.
-my nose.
-my chin.
-my cheeks.
-How I have no self esteem.
-My scars.
-my GPA
-my reputation.
-some other people.
-being depressed for no reason at all.
-How I'm always sick.

Okay, now I'm depressed because I'm realizing what's wrong with me.

I really like someone. All I think about is him, but then...when I'm with someone else, even just for a little bit, I never want the night to end. The guy I seriously like, though, is way too young for me and really just not my type, not to mention...mean and irritating. I don't really have a type, but I feel really comfortable whenever I'm around this one guy, even though we're just friends. So, do I tell him how I feel? Because if I do, I'll feel like an idiot knowing he doesn't have feelings for me...at least, he hasn't said so...

"If you're with someone really great, that should be everything, right? So I should feel lucky."
"Love isn't about luck. It's about being with the right person."

Yesterday was amazing until I found out something today that totally ruined it all for me.

First, I went to Richard and Robert's football practise. It was fun. I really like Richard. I did like Robert, until I found out that a lot of the stuff he says to me is all a bunch of bullshit, so screw that.

Secondly, I need a date to homecoming. I have an idea of some people I would like to go with, but I'm so afraid of rejection AGAIN that I'm not going to ask anyone.

Anyway,I hate boys who are on the rebound.

A note to Robert-you can try to convince me that you're over someone, but it's not going to work because now I know the real you, and all you are is a liar.

Yay! School! I love school so far. I'm soooo glad that my best friend is in school with me, even though she screwed up her schedule and embarrassed herself terribly. Any questions on that, IM unrevealingtruth. Anyway, my classes are great. Block 1 I have intro to business and I'm happy because Nick and Ang are in my class. Nick and I had sooooo much fun today in that class signing up for clear blue discover cards. Then I have world civ with Mr. Conley who I secretly think is hott. I met some new freshman and sophomores who are cool like Sam, Melissa, and Mari.That's about it for school. Umm, yea that's about it.

Oh yea, I decided I'm gonna try out for the play. We had practise to learn the dance last night which is something i'm struggling with, but I have a few teachers. :)

AMANDA NEEDS A HOMECOMING DATE REAL BAD! SOMEONE PLEASE GO WITH ME!!!!!

Whoo. The past 2 days have been AWESOME. Of course, like any normal 15/16 year old girl, I've been going to the fair, but not for the rides or food. :) I met this kid, Teddy who works at the stand next to Leigh and he is awesome. I really like talking to him and hanging out with him. I'm so glad I met him, it's weird because I found out that he's Loke's old boyfriend. =0! Cosmic. Anyway, last night, we were supposed to go to the Bill Cosby show thingy, but Ailis and I got bored, so we went to see Teddy. We talked for a while and it was a lot of fun. Then we realized that there were like a million people coming out of the grandstand and we were like OMG WE MISSED THE SHOW!! But mom and dad weren't mad, lucky for us. Now today, we're going back and I'm gonna play with Teddy when he has his break. :) That's about it. Bye.

The last time I updated was Tuesday, I think, so I'll start with Wednesday.

Wednesday--> Fitch Band Night. It was so boring. I made some really neat new friends from Brookfield. They were AWESOME people. That's all.

Thursday--> I went to the fair with Deana and Ailis. We had SO much fun. First, we went to the fair and we bought pimp hats. Then we left and walked to the middle school. It was open but NO ONE was there and all the lights were off so we walked around and there was a huge spider that bit Deana. Then, we went to Steve's house where we played for a while and I wore his spinner belt. We went back to the fair. Deana met up with her boyfriend and I was kinda bored, so I met up with my BEST FRIEND CHRISTINA MARIE ALEXANDRIA SMYTHE and the new girl, Sam, who seems really nice and cool. They didn't wanna hang out anymore, cuz Sam felt left out sorda, so I went with Robert, Dustin, Alex, Rachael, Brennan, Morgan, Chelsea, and like a hundred other people. We had sooooo much fun.

Friday--> I went to the fair again with Christine, and I don't want to talk about what went on. It was lame. But then, Christine slept over. And I stuck a carrot in her nose while she was sleeping. It was awesome. She's my best friend in the whole world and I LOVE hanging out with her. Especially since I haven't seen her in so long.

I'm going to the fair with Megan today.

Today is Wednesday, and Monday, I didn't do anything. We had this lame potluck dinner thing, so I washed my shirt and forgot to throw it in the dryer, so I had to wear it wet to the school. It smelled like laundry detergent, so that made me happy. Then we were playing and I was happy to see that mom was there. :)

Tuesday: once again, didn't do much but walk around the fairgrounds with Ailis and Andrew where I saw Rachael and Derek and some other loser boys, but Allie and Morgan and some other girl were with Rachael and they seemed really nice. :) We talked for a while and I yelled at Derek, again. Then we had our Canfield Band Night and Christine showed up. :) After that, Adam's mom took us all to Perkin's and Adam left and we ate and Christine dumped Matt. Well, she didn't I just kinda called him and told him he was dumped and then I told her afterwards. She was cool with it, she doesn't really care. Umm then we went to the gas station and got candy bars and left our wrappers outside of Perkin's. tehe... ummness, then I came home.

Today: It's only 11 AM and I'm going golfing. See ya. :)

ShickyBaby01: okay so it will be my senior prom

a lb a fn: haha okay

ShickyBaby01: and ill be like 'ma im goin with so and so' and she will be like 'is amanda going' and ill be like 'ummm no she graduated' than my mom will be like 'well deana you arent going, amandas not gunna be there!'

Today I came home around 10 because I slept over night at my grandma's camper. Then we went to the hospital. That's all. That's all for my day.

I </3 ^^^^ ^^^^^

Thursday-->we had our first football game and kicked butt. That's really all that happened. Mollie and I got pizza at Ianazones. Yep, that's it. Oh yea, I yelled at Derek.
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Anyone who hurt Rachael Pintarix really better watch it. She's an awesome person and she doesn't deserve to be treated the way she is by some of you losers.

Friday--> went to the hospital and waited around for that stupid doctor. I wonder if I'll ever see him again.

On a lighter note, I'm starting to lose weight. My school clothes are getting big and I'm happy, but I have to go shopping again. =]

I wish that I could make you see in one way how perfect you are for me. All the time we spent together, the laughs, the tears, the fights, the hugs and kisses and sleepovers late at night. Sitting in eachother's arms, there could be no more perfect place, than lying there and watching the expression on your face. As I watched you fall in love with someone else who isn't me, I guess I'm not the lucky girl, Istead, that was she. I love you without doubt, until the day I die, which I wish would come so suddenly, so I can watch you cry. You told me one too many lies to being back any trust. I'm afraid a new relationship will not being love, but lust. So watch as you leave me lying there, my entire future killed, I just hope that all your dreams of happiness are fulfilled.

I like someone else now. I need to settle on one person, I know, but I really like this one. Deana's the only one who knows who he is.
CLUES: freshman, blonde, straight hair, blue eyes, braces, totally hott.

-->last night was fun, I guess. I went to Aj Esposito's party because Ian made me and I had a lot of fun with him. :) We cuddled a lot of the night and slow danced and it was cute. I wanted to swim, but I didn't bring my suit, so Andy Price splashed me. Now I can say I went swimming with Andy. :) Let's see...that was about it. Yesterday was boring for the most part until the party. Oh yea, we humped Gina. It was like a group hump, instead of a group huddle.

-->today, band camp. Woohoo. We have a football game tonight. I can't wait. [lies] At sectionals, practically no one was there, so Pat had to pee and while he was peeing I waited outside the door and sang to him. It helps him go easier. :) Then I went in the boys bathroom and Pat and I played in the practise room and in the bathroom. That was fun, but then when we came out, Mr. Vanboxel was just looking at us. Heh, oopsie. That's about all for today. I'm depressed. I need to talk to Evan Zuzik-who is a masochist, like me. :) tehe BONDAGE! YAY!

Band camp wasn't too bad today. I went and I played and I did well, I suppose. Tonight, I'm going to AJ's house for his party. It's probably going to be lame, but I'm going because Ian's going, and I have a crush on him. :)

That's about it for today.

This bed was getting too big to sleep in
And im dying just to feel you breathe.

Yesterday and today we're fun yet stressful. Yesterday I had band camp from 8-12, then Deana showed up and we ran around the track and walked to Perkin's for a healthy lunch. :) Steve has me on a health kick. He's good. Anyway, once I got home, I showered and got all ready and we went to the hospital to visit my grandpa...
The Hospital:
On the way there, we passed the veterans hospital and stopped there only to discover that wasn't where he was at.
-We drove another hour to another hospital through the projects where there were hookers. They were grody.
-We got to the hospital and visited. I got bored so Andrew and I went to the vending machine for some water.
-The elevator ride back to the room: A hott HOTT doctor/nurse came in and yelled at andrew for having a gun. Then he made the point that he was just joking and that he was protecting his sisters. ;) (story1)
-10 minutes later, I decided to go to the waiting room and sit and study some Abnormal Psychology. The hottie came up to me and we started talking about college, and going to school. I mentioned that I was only 16.
-10 minutes later, he came back...
-He exclaimed that I look very mature for my age and that it's not every day he has 16 year old girls hitting on him. (I didn't hit on him, he hit on me.) He then told me I'm pretty. Hah, what a jerk. He was 28.

I wanted to go back today. Mom is there. It's her birthday.

Today, band camp was sheer hell. We got 2 water breaks for 3 minutes each. All the rest of the 4 hours and 10 minutes, we stood outside and marched. Moorhead was drilling us way too hard.

I'm sunburned, so I'm not going tomorrow. Maybe I'll go to the hospital with mom so that I can give that doctor my number. ;)

I sat around naked today because I didn't feel like getting dressed.

Until next time-Amanda